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  • LE Nonfiction, Gina Moriarty

    LE Nonfiction, Gina Moriarty

    100 Words / 12 Hits / Gravity

    The first time my boyfriend ever tried LSD, I put two hits in a beer bottle a half hour before I told him about it. He was already rolling so he fucking loved it. 

    “Let’s candy flip on the coast.” 

    Before our trip, I traded a half ounce of Medicinal Gelato for two strips of Rick and Morty perforated paper. I sold ten hits, one strip, and the profits funded a ball of cocaine. We stopped along the turnpike every hour on the hour to sniff lines in the family bathroom stalls. The ball didn’t make it to the beach.

    *

    1:53 AM. The motorcycle revved into the parking lot just in time: Ocean City liquor store closed at 2. Neon lights fizzled in the salty breeze. We were in and out, but we had a dilemma: until you’ve packed for a motorcycle trip, you’ve taken the luxury of luggage for granted. The pannier was crammed full, and all our clothes jammed in a duffel bungie-tied to my backrest. Now what? We hit Coastal Highway, full speed. Him driving, me on the back, with a case of Budweiser and a bottle of cheap tequila across my lap. Let’s call it carry-on. 

    *

    We ate Rick and Morty LSD on the Fourth of July. Three days in advance a friend hooked us up with one room two blocks from the beach. Three Cheers. Second Floor. One hit each. Sul-sul. This batch made me speak Simlish: A language from the Sims. A strategic life simulation computer game. Auschten-Dorf. Holographic vision. Beach and back. Sisaroom? The condo was brand new. Aventurescence. Pleasant. Ah, docka morpher. Tequila. OJ. Tequila. I expected an explosion. Boom. Big boom. Back to beach. Ooh be gah. Beachside at sunrise, the sun shone green like a traffic light traversing the atmosphere. 

    *

    Sunshine. Sugar Cubes. Lucy. Liquid Love. Uncle Cid. Windowpanes. Doses. Paper. Blotter. Stamps. Lysergic-Acid-Diethylamide. One hundred hits are known within the psychedelic community as a sheet. Ten sheets, a book. One-hundred sheets, ten thousand hits, we call that a Bible. On the beach, I suggested we call it a passport instead. The nomenclature of a traveler’s visa derives from the Latin phrase Charta Visa: “paper that has been seen,” and U.S. citizens refer to their passport as a “blue book.” So, why not? Ingesting that much LSD is a spiritual journey, but ten-thousand stamps sure make a lot of trips. 

    *

    Clothed with surge, heavy with undercurrent, our feet and our hands in the tide. We let the waves drag the beach snug around our shins. 

     “Do you feel it? The waves, the energy? More than the water. That pull – a deep force beneath – in and out… in and out…in.” I felt connected to the core: beckoned from the nucleus. 

    “What has the moon to do with the tide?” he asked the summer night’s sky. 

    “How can the moon affect the Earth breathing?” I breathed deeply. In and out. I suggested, “It’s all connected by a remarkable something. Maybe it’s love.”

    *

    I promise, you don’t know what tie-dye is until you’ve watched the rising sun’s rays tickle through the ocean foam while you’re tripping on LSD. The swells of water twist and turn vibrant shades of pinks and violets into turquoise, cobalt, white and emerald green colored braids. A fluid rainbow fashioned from the Earth, the wind, and the water. The involuntary tug, infinitely heaving. Swirling streams of shades into a mirror of humanity. In Portuguese, the word cafuné means to lovingly run your fingers through someone’s hair. That’s what the sky was doing: caressing strands into the ocean’s chaotic locks.

    *

    Lights off – useless. I could sense his signature with my eyes shut; his aura glowed sultry shades of pinks, blues, orange. Perception vibrated. His energy was enveloping. It pulsated, savage, and intimate. When my eyes blinked open, I engulfed his white swirling energy. I breathed him in, consumed by desire, and a carnal urge to bite. My lips slid sideways across the bridge of his nose. My incisor punctured skin. The movement sent us slipping, polished with passion, we plummeted to the rented condo floor. My lips were wet and red with his blood. We chuckled, convulsing, still connected.  

    *

    Wearing shorts on a Harley is frowned upon. The pipes will burn the skin off your shin faster than you can cuss. Riding the east coast beneath the July sun, jeans were out of the question. Sunscreen made my butt cheeks squeak. When I shifted, my skin sounded like the beginning of “Money.” To achieve this noise in the recording studio, Pink Floyd tore pieces of tape. Sweaty thighs against black leather make the same sound: riiiiiip. Red splotches appeared like bruises. When traffic stopped, the asphalt replied with ripples of heat. High-fidelity first-class traveling.  No way to get away.

    *

    Map Quest lied. The three-and-a-half-hour ride became five. From Ocean City, MD to AC, New Jersey, we rode painfully hungover with the coast on our right. Traffic was a bitch. We rode the berm. One side of my body burned bright red. On the AC Expressway, the Jersey skies opened and cried. The lobby was filled with flashy sundresses and sandals. We were holding hands and dripping rain. Sunburn singed my shoulders. 

    “One smoking king. Floor 7.” 

    Pot fumes greeted our arrival as if Cheech and Chong were down the hall. I sparked a joint before our door clicked shut.

    *

    We meandered Old Philadelphia Pike and took back roads home. I watched red teardrops on my GPS, set to “search along” our route for restaurants. The town names of south-central PA, nearby Amish Country, are coined with silly, sexual innuendos. First, Intercourse. Now, Bird-In-Hand. Fertility Village ahead. Signs for horse-and-buggy crossings punctuated the otherwise empty roads. “Smokehouse BBQ and Brews” appeared promptly. I tapped him, stretching my arm across his shoulder, I waved my phone in his face. He nodded and signaled the turn. Two-and-a-half hours since we left Atlantic City. We stopped once for gas. Still six hours from home.

    *

    “Pump the brakes,” I yelled, pinching his sides. 

    He couldn’t hear me. I should’ve let him buy the expensive headsets. I wanted to spend our money on drugs, but now that all the drugs were gone, I was beginning to doubt the expenditures, our priorities. For roughly nine rough hours I sat behind him, with nothing to amuse me besides the steady scenery, the rolling hills of Pennsylvania. I played Grateful Dead renditions through the Bluetooth radio, barreling a parade from the saddle bags. I hoped the melodies would distract me from how quickly the asphalt whizzed beneath my feet. 

    *

    8:57 PM. The sky had darkened by the time we pulled into the driveway. Darkled. Nine-hundred-and-eighty-nine miles in total. 11 miles shy of 1000. I dismounted first, hamstrings aching. Riding a motorcycle can be a real pain in the ass. We untangled our luggage and collapsed beside each other on the couch. After twelve hours, the physical separation from feet to floor, from chest to back, was unfamiliar. I was ungrounded, cold without him. We went to bed immediately, slept tucked together, like when the bike turns hard into a steep turn, and the pressure smushes us together like one. 

    BIO

    Gina Moriarty is an emerging writer who earned her MFA through Chatham University in Pittsburgh. Her thesis was the recipient of the Katherine Ayres Award. She writes emotion driven narrative nonfiction. Typically, her work covers the themes of addiction, heartache, and coincidence beneath an umbrella of hope.

  • LE Author CONVERSATIONS

    LE Author CONVERSATIONS

    GINA MORIARTY

    Limit Experience Magazine Conversations speaks with Gina Moriarty, author of 100 words / 12 Hits / Gravity

    “The trip shifts into periods of introspection, and when that vast awareness is suddenly switched inward, some may not have the mental or emotional capabilities to deal with their shadows.” – GM

    In your essay,100 Words / 12 Hits / Gravity, you write from a transgressive space punctuated by the speed of an actual and metaphorical ride through the libidinal realm of union. It feels like the cerebrally exploited appendage of sex acts as a metaphysical portal to the ephemeral side of intimacy. The couple seems by the end of the ride to open to a paradoxical lack of connection. How did you identify and develop the mapping of the narrator’s drug induced confrontation with the masculine/feminine axis of desire amidst an edge of what leads unexpectedly to subtextual longing?

    GM While this essay reads as though it was written in a transient state, time was my true companion. Enrolled in a Travel Writing class during the pandemic provided an interesting obstacle – writing about travel without traveling. I chose to write of a trip I’d taken the previous summer with my boyfriend, and in doing so, gave myself the chance to play around in this Creative Nonfiction Travel Writing genre. Each week my professor, Marc Neison, assigned one word to use in the telling of a 100-word short story. Marc didn’t expect us to weave a narrative, but I appreciated the challenge. 

    By the end of the semester, I had 16 100-word segments prompted with words such as home, water, sunscreen, currency. These words became the landmarks to map “Gravity.” This piece wasn’t written in order, instead driven by these words set along emotional markers on the timeline of the trip. In my initial composition, the idea of balancing connection with disconnection was involuntary, but with each passing week, I noticed the theme and wrote with this harmonization of movement in mind.

    Writing about drugs – psychedelics specifically – creates portals for nonfiction writing which allow space for fantastical elements, but more-so, make room for garishness, for those carnal moments to transpire. This drug-induced state erases any filter, and that can only transfer to the writing, allowing the narrator a sort of jester-like persona. With LSD the true nature of the partaker is unabashedly revealed. The connection between all who indulge together is forged by the efforts of the drug, by the shifts of frequency, and in such a way a different friendship forms as the user’s consciousness expands to a greater understanding of the persona they’re tripping alongside. The interconnectedness on such a deep level prompts new levels of intimacy, a compulsory truthfulness occurs, and the user can’t help but show their true nature.

    The reason some swear against acid is because the come down requires self-work. The trip shifts into periods of introspection, and when that vast awareness is suddenly switched inward, some may not have the mental or emotional capabilities to deal with their shadows. The thing about LSD is it’s a truth serum some just aren’t ready to taste. Those, like me, who have used the drug with the objective of mine expansion instead of simply getting super trippy, tap into the superpowers we all possess – the superpower of intuition. Expressing how these characters opened themselves to the vulnerability of each other, I was able to set their motorcycle along this paradoxical axis of drug addiction that parallels their relationship, displaying how cocaine shuts out the universe while psychedelics open one’s mind to it.

    It’s a perilous balancing act – not the motorcycle – but drug use in a union, because the moment one person tunes themselves to a different level – a different frequency – the whole relationship disassembles, and while both remain on an unbalanced precipice of addiction, the universe’s pressure will increase on the couple until their only chance is to split or to conform fully around each other and their chosen substances.